Vigile (someonereal_) wrote,
@ 2006-05-10 00:15:00

"The lights on the highway are so relaxing, like hundreds of little prisms reflecting a single beam of sunlight into spangles on a black tapestry."

Vigile (someonereal_) wrote,
@ 2005-10-31 18:39:00

The afternoon sun had a different glow, like in dreams…or in Heaven. It was white and its sacred-colored beams shone on me through my bedroom window as I lay in bed. I was scared.

Only once, or twice maybe (I couldn’t be sure), had I experienced this white eerie glow, but neither of them had any tangible realism. Once I was in a trance and felt suddenly that I was in this room, nowhere, with white curtained windows and nothing outside them. Everything was glowing pearl and moss white and there he was, the God with a face almost faceless like the iridescent glow of the white sun. In His embrace I was suddenly filled and dizzy with heavy light pouring and pouring into me until I was back in my seat at home, knees weak, beside my bedroom window.

Another time it was a dream. Much earlier; much younger. Again I was standing in a room, nowhere, the empty bright silver abyss outside white-curtained windows. The gleam of everything was striking pearl white and he was there, someone I knew from childhood, seen and unseen behind wind-blown curtains. Hidden and out into view again, white as everything, mocking me with his translucent presence. I’d walk towards him, reaching out and he’d be gone.

But here, now; this afternoon was real. No white room amidst a nowhere of silvery emptiness, green blinds for white-curtained windows, everything in pale bright white-yellow, and there was just the sun. A gleaming entity suspended in the afternoon sky with its iridescent glow that scared me; at once making me both empty and full with its haunting light, like a permeable sheet of cloth in a pool of radiance gushing through, and through, and through.. I looked towards the pearl sun, its soft circular border indistinguishable from the silver sky behind it. It glowed of dreamy white with hints of gold.

And I wished for you. That you’d materialize before me from the sparkles and glints of the glass chimes hanging from my window. And you’d be with me here, stroking my hair and whispering with a voice soft and warm as light into my ear that we had a chance. Lying with me, as white and warm as everything, sparkling and glinting beside me until the haunting radiance of the sun faded away with the afternoon.

But the sparkles and glints remained sparkles and glints before my eyes, ebbing with the seconds as the white and silver shimmer of the sun gleamed with a different glow, all the while leaving only illusions of your eyes from the spangles of light. Slowly and with splendid grace, the afternoon sun with its eerie glow crept across the empty, white abyss of a sky, where nowhere had been, and the whole time, all I had beside me were the one…two unreal encounters with this alien white glow until with the staggering seconds they all faded away with the night.

These are what I have lost through the years.

Vigile (someonereal_) wrote,
@ 2006-05-22 01:51:00

LIST I: Things I wanna do if I were a Billionaire and had nothing to do with my money.
1) Travel.
2) Donate one/two million to the Central Visayan Institute, and one million to the Research Center for Theoretical Physics and probably donate to other institutions that are promising and innovative.
3) Sponsor a number of scholars.
4) Buy the F Hospital and revive it, aesthetic-wise, and reputation wise, with my partners.
5) Start a business maybe. But then again, I wouldn't really need more money, especially since I can live an exceptionally spoiled life on just the interest of that billion.
6) Keep my parents healthy and happy. It seems a significant amount of money is involved for them to live a happy life after retirement.
7) Tour Europe, and ride a cruise.


LIST II: Things I wanna do if I were an Eccentric Billionaire and Creative Genius
1) Maybe start an institution that will help others start their own business. Wehehehe. Dunno how I'll be doing that.
2) Hmm..if I'd revive anything in UP with my money, and being the eccentric that I am, I'd give some money for the improvement of the infirmary. For some reason students dislike going there, even though they offer free destist services for students. Sayang naman.
3) I'd also contribute to the improvement of the tennis courts behind the Shopping Center. Maybe give it a roof, some lights and better bleachers, plus improve the quality of the hard courts there, it's just terrible. By then Tennis UP would probably hold their tambayan there anyway.
4) I'd work with Gen to bring down the Ocean Adventure place, and any other similar institutions.
5) Since I am a genius, (wehehehe) I'd study at an Ivy League school for Masteral and Doctorate. Cambrige? Yale? Harvard? UPenn? Princeton? MIT? *swoons*
6) Write a novel.
7) Compose a song. (I am creative, according to the assumption)
8) Make sure I always have a pair of of good quality tennis shoes. For some reason none of my shoes last me a year without getting badly worn down.
9) Get the best tennis racket. If practice can't make me better, maybe equipment can. XD
10) Fund a tree planting campaign in NCR. It's been my dream, and the reason I put up my humble Nature Club a long long time ago.
11) Buy Gen her own beach since she'd gonna need it if she had her own jetski. :P
12) Contribute to the improvement of the Philippines' Culture and Arts, the way the Marcoses did. It's one other thing we've neglected.
13) Give funding for improvement of the roads and highways all over the Philippines (especially in rural areas). It'll lessen their transportation costs when shipping agricultural goods to the city, hence, fresher fruits and vegetables and fish, at a cheaper price. Plus, tourists spots (na nasa liblib na probinsya) are more accessible to tourists.
14) Buy back what was taken from La Hacienda and build a house there so that my parents can live there when they retire. Plus I'll hire more capable farm-tenders who I trust so that we don't always get cheated with our own mangoes. And plant more mango trees. LOL
15) Buy a pet Panda. If not a Koala. XD If it's illegal, I'll build an institution in China (Australia) that will help in the prevention of Panda (Koala) extinction. In a sense I'd still have my Panda (Koala).
16) Buy Sig her Lotus Tree bonsai. If none exist, form and fund a team of scientists and genetic engineers to study and make Lotus tree bonsais. And get a nice one for Sig. And maybe get one for myself as well. LOL
17) Travel.

LIST III: Things I Wanna Dare To Do
1) Climb a well-known mountain. Although I really doubt I'd ever be given the honor to reach a tenth of the Everest.
2) Yes, scuba diving. ^__^ Gen's desires have rubbed off on me.
3) Yes, horseback riding. I was so drawn to it especially as I was reading Beauty...I want to have a Greatheart. LOL
4) Go joyriding into a far far away place.
5) Hmm...White water rafting sounds really really appealing. *.*
6) Traverse a rainforest..In Malaysia or something. XD Like the people in Discovery Channel.
7) Run away and live on my own for a month.
8) Ride a hot air balloon.
9) What's that thing that you ride na parang wings ng airplane, except much lighter, and you simply hold on to a bar underneath it and jump off a cliff and glide with it until you reach the ground as if you had wings? What was that you call it? ^_^ I've always want to try that.
10) Break a heart.

LIST IV: Things I Wanna Learn and Hopefully Be Good At
1) Climbing trees.
2) Kite flying.
3) Writing short stories and novels. Whee~
4) Nihonggo. Maybe a Europeal Language too. ^^
5) Drawing.
6) Shooting a gun. Hehehe...Nakakatuwa si Gen.
7) Some musical instrument. So i can compose songs. Yey~
8) Tennis din, syempre. I've learned it, but I'm relatively low average as of the moment, (and this list does include the "hopefully be good at" condition)
9) Make friends.
10) Photoshop and Flash. Gaaaah. My dream for what, a decade already? >___<
11) Cooking and sewing. I realized I need those skills if I ever want to travel. T_T

LIST V: Things I Wanna Do Before I Die
1) Write a book.
2) Get published in an acclaimed Academic journal.
3) Have a family.
4) Finish the Phoenix Pendant.
5) Propose a Theory/Theorem in Mathematics or Economics that will bear my name when I die. (The Fabella Teorem, or kahit Fabella-someoneelse Theorem).
6) Visit Zurich, and Sydney, and Geneva, and the Netherlands.
7) Revisit Nagoya, and Manchester.
8) Tour Europe, and ride a cruise.

Maybe in 10 years I can fill out these lists again?

Vigile

Your calm manner and maturity belie a fierce determination to be at the top where you can exercise authority and get things done. Although somewhat of a rebel you attract much support through treating others with kindness and friendship. You have a broad scope and are naturally drawn to travel or projects which can expand your knowledge and understanding. Your talents and generosity bring you emotional and material contentment.

Fairly accurate I think...